Parade of the Senses:Hearing

Often in conversation, but only with people that know how I am, I look the other way, continue what I am doing or even watch TV. I do this for a couple reasons, the first being I not big on eye contact and the second, because I can. Go on test me, I can give you perfect feedback or advice on that story you just told me as watch something else happening. You can't rewind real life and I feel that the TV has made us think this is untrue. Real time events have to be captured by your brain as they happen and if you are unable to multi-task with seeing and hearing, you will surely miss out. Seeing may be believing but I also trust my auditory senses to make sure what I see as being accurate. The great thing about hearing or listening is that you can have your eyes closed. In this way you can better hear the lies your sight tries to tell you.

Ever since I was little my hearing has been second to none. Just as I do with my eyes I notice things others cannot. Some of what I hear though, is not my choice. I have always been able to hear static-like sounds or a strange buzz-hum noise. When trying to sleep my heartbeat in my ear keeps me awake. I sometimes hear a tone that gets louder before fading away, like it was never there. This may be Tinnitus (as the last part in the definition states "or even a pure steady tone like that heard during a hearing test ") but I'm not entirely sure because it has always been an issue for me. I have not had any ear trauma that I can recall and I'm too young to be going deaf. Besides there is the fact that I can hear better than most of the population to begin with. So why do I hear things others may overlook? It may be that I have trained myself to do so.

When I first began metal detecting I had to distinguish between a good sound and a bad one. I had to interpret what my machine was telling me, even very limited amounts of information. Many of the signals I am after aren't right on top of the ground, they are deep, and the corresponding noise that happens when I walk over them almost non existent. Even the new machine I have doesn't show anything on the screen (gotta love a target ID system) but a slight, and I do mean slight, change in the threshold or back tone of the machine. When I notice this slight interruption I instantly recognize that I must re scan the area I had just passed over, sort of like taking a step back to think about things before moving forward. Also, let it be know that coins are not always perfectly face up or down in the ground, they may have gone down at any number of angles, making the signal sound askew. When I hear that slight interruption I have to go over at a few different angles to determine whether or not it is worth digging up. I have learned to listen well because digging 10 inch holes, besides taking a while, can also be messy. What raw hearing ability I used to have has most certainly been honed over the last 13 years out in the field or on the beach. My finds over that period also show this to be true.

One of the things I like to do most with my hearing is listen to music. Heck, I'm listening to some as I type this. Even in songs I like to listen past the typical sounds you can hear and tune into the background noises of the music. The song I have on at the moment, Bitter Sweet Symphony by The Verve has sort of an older cell phone ring somewhere in the back of it that presents itself at various times. But, much like what could be happening with Tinnitus, I may only think I'm hearing this noise. That or I'm going insane and have been since day one.

One link that music has with AS is that it can have a calming effect on people like me. I have seen a lot of autistic people wear headphones, and although this may be protection from the louder sounds of the outside world, they often have music playing. Going back to detecting for a moment, the headphones I wear cancel outside noise so I only hear what I want to. In fact I participated in a study in college that had me listen to some random music and then a CD of my own choosing. I was hooked up to a heart monitor at this time and the test was only for people on the autism spectrum. I think they were trying to link up how music affect people with AS and just how it did so.

Music for me is mostly classic rock. I like it because it has identifiable instruments, not something made by a computer. My favorite songs are the ones that have a lot going on, especially guitar. A lot of Zeppelin songs, Pink Floyd, CCR, 24 or 6 to 4 by Chicago and too many songs to list by my favorite artist, who shall remain nameless as this time, have me almost under a spell as I have an eargasm or two. (I know that is not a real world, but it should be.) I can simply sit there and tap my fingers or track each note in my mind as anything I've been thinking about instantly slips away. That is one of the reasons music is so good for people of the autism spectrum; forgetting your fears or any anxiety you are feeling, even briefly, can be huge. All you have to do to prolong it is to play another song.

Whether it be use in everyday life or simply enjoying a song or two hearing is one of the most important components in my everyday life. Without it I would truly be lost.

Questions or comments? Please let me know.