A Brain in Constant Motion:It Never Ends

My mind itself is always in a constant state of motion. Even when I try to blank out random things cloud my brain. Having a hyperactive mind is nothing new; it’s just that people don't like to think they have a problem with it. I know I do. And trust me when I say if you have it, you know it. There is no gray area here. It can be hard to cope with sometimes but after twenty five years you accept it as a normalcy of life.

With my mind moving at such a torrent pace it is easy to multi-task. I can have a conversation with you while watching TV. Many of the day to day conversations I have with people I know involves me hardly looking at them at all. They know me and know I am paying attention. As for everyone else, I give them more of a glance before I look away. It can be sort of likened to a basketball player staying in the paint for no more than three seconds. If I stare too long then I become a little timid around people I don't really know/feel comfortable with. Something in my mind tells me I have to get out of there, regroup and then come back again. I do this seamlessly now, without them even noticing, because it happens faster than they can process.

As for stopping the flow of never ending thoughts, I have found a way to do so. If you are open and really would like to know, I'll be glad to tell you in private. Is the method perfect? Not by a long shot; but it is the only thing I have found that works, so far. I may need to think a little longer for a better solution.