So going back to what I was saying about my two brains. One is an overly cautious person while the other, newer one is someone who basically gives the weaker brain the finger. Now I don't know if what I'm about to describe to you is part of one brain or the other, or it may be part of both. Either way, this is the childlike part of me, and it isn't going anywhere.
I have an affinity for animals and they seem to trust me more than other people. This may be because they don't argue with you as much as a human would. You come home and they are so overjoyed to see you that nothing else at that point matters to them. As if to say "How was your day?!" in all its glorious variations they run at you with reckless abandon. I receive them as they receive me. If feel like they should understand me and take me as I am, I almost feel entitled to it, like I earned it or something. The feeling is really hard to describe, but its true. It doesn't really ever get old. I see dogs on the street and walk up to their owners and ask to pet them. Sometimes I even go to the MSPCA just to pet the kittens or puppies, as a way to relieve stress, maybe. These are all things, besides the one that involves driving, that a child would do. Complete innocence is behind all of these actions and I am not afraid to look like an idiot in public when I ask the owner for a quick pet of their animal or make baby noises as I play with it. They can think whatever they want to, I probably won't be seeing them any time soon, so I don't worry about it. I am also good at various animal noises and such, birds cats and the like. I think this goes along with my lower/meets higher brain function I described in the earlier post entitled Call Me Captain Caveman. Besides my peculiar love and apparent connection with animals I do a couple things that could be categorized as 'child like' behavior.
Have you ever seen a baby smile and clap their hands vigorously in appreciation of something? Have you ever seen a grown man do it? This is perhaps the most goofy thing I do on a regular occasion, although I have to pin my hands down in public from doing so. This phenomenon, if you will, is typical brought on by an exciting thing/event being announced, tension mounting in a movie, the celebration of a live sporting event such as a walk-off home run or touchdown, or even the anticipation of substantial bids being placed as the seconds close down to zero on one of my eBay auctions. The bottom line is something exciting it always a trigger for this behavior. I first realized I did this a few years ago. I was watching TV and something exciting was happening so I broke out into a full clap like one of those cymbal toting toy monkeys. I hit the pads of my hands, just where all the fingers join to the hand, and it lasted for around three seconds. I mentally caught myself this time; I guess I had never done that before or didn't remember it. I didn't know where the clapping had come from and it seemed like such a lower brain function that I had to look it up to see if it meant anything. Well we all know it did. Still it didn't seem any less weird to me. Most things happen for a reason and some can't be explained. There is another thing that I do which is very childlike but it is something everyone does, more or less, to an extent.
When I get tired (and this is usually the mental variety) my patience, which is normally other worldly, along with my ability to concentrate, problem solve and do any type of higher reasoning goes right out the window. I also seem to be zombie like and my ability to carry on a meaningful conversation becomes that of trying to talk to a wall. I'm not sure but I think this is my brain trying to either conserve energy or regain it. The ONLY way that I have ever learned to deal with this problem, and it is a major one, is to self isolate. If I don't or you want me to be social, it isn't going to end well for everyone involved. You know how tired children get when you force them to interact? Just like the clapping thing, picture that happening with an adult; it isn't pretty. People who know me well know I have to flee at these times and not a whole lot can be done about it. The funny thing is I can sit alone in my workshop for eight hours and do the most intricate stuff, almost in a trance, but if you put me with people for less than four hours then I'm fried. Granted, the working alone does put me in 'the zone' and that is hard to get out of sometimes but at least I can still deal with people during this time. At this that time I am just like anyone else who is in 'the zone', hyper-focused.
So there you have it, for now. I will have to add more later in this subject I am sure of that. To sum up I have two brains. One is an adult who is more control now than before. He is rational and thinks ahead. The other is an overanxious fool who needs to be told the truth more often than not. The thing about these two brains is that they share a child who will always stay innocent and pure, no matter how often the parents need to fight.
I have an affinity for animals and they seem to trust me more than other people. This may be because they don't argue with you as much as a human would. You come home and they are so overjoyed to see you that nothing else at that point matters to them. As if to say "How was your day?!" in all its glorious variations they run at you with reckless abandon. I receive them as they receive me. If feel like they should understand me and take me as I am, I almost feel entitled to it, like I earned it or something. The feeling is really hard to describe, but its true. It doesn't really ever get old. I see dogs on the street and walk up to their owners and ask to pet them. Sometimes I even go to the MSPCA just to pet the kittens or puppies, as a way to relieve stress, maybe. These are all things, besides the one that involves driving, that a child would do. Complete innocence is behind all of these actions and I am not afraid to look like an idiot in public when I ask the owner for a quick pet of their animal or make baby noises as I play with it. They can think whatever they want to, I probably won't be seeing them any time soon, so I don't worry about it. I am also good at various animal noises and such, birds cats and the like. I think this goes along with my lower/meets higher brain function I described in the earlier post entitled Call Me Captain Caveman. Besides my peculiar love and apparent connection with animals I do a couple things that could be categorized as 'child like' behavior.
Have you ever seen a baby smile and clap their hands vigorously in appreciation of something? Have you ever seen a grown man do it? This is perhaps the most goofy thing I do on a regular occasion, although I have to pin my hands down in public from doing so. This phenomenon, if you will, is typical brought on by an exciting thing/event being announced, tension mounting in a movie, the celebration of a live sporting event such as a walk-off home run or touchdown, or even the anticipation of substantial bids being placed as the seconds close down to zero on one of my eBay auctions. The bottom line is something exciting it always a trigger for this behavior. I first realized I did this a few years ago. I was watching TV and something exciting was happening so I broke out into a full clap like one of those cymbal toting toy monkeys. I hit the pads of my hands, just where all the fingers join to the hand, and it lasted for around three seconds. I mentally caught myself this time; I guess I had never done that before or didn't remember it. I didn't know where the clapping had come from and it seemed like such a lower brain function that I had to look it up to see if it meant anything. Well we all know it did. Still it didn't seem any less weird to me. Most things happen for a reason and some can't be explained. There is another thing that I do which is very childlike but it is something everyone does, more or less, to an extent.
When I get tired (and this is usually the mental variety) my patience, which is normally other worldly, along with my ability to concentrate, problem solve and do any type of higher reasoning goes right out the window. I also seem to be zombie like and my ability to carry on a meaningful conversation becomes that of trying to talk to a wall. I'm not sure but I think this is my brain trying to either conserve energy or regain it. The ONLY way that I have ever learned to deal with this problem, and it is a major one, is to self isolate. If I don't or you want me to be social, it isn't going to end well for everyone involved. You know how tired children get when you force them to interact? Just like the clapping thing, picture that happening with an adult; it isn't pretty. People who know me well know I have to flee at these times and not a whole lot can be done about it. The funny thing is I can sit alone in my workshop for eight hours and do the most intricate stuff, almost in a trance, but if you put me with people for less than four hours then I'm fried. Granted, the working alone does put me in 'the zone' and that is hard to get out of sometimes but at least I can still deal with people during this time. At this that time I am just like anyone else who is in 'the zone', hyper-focused.
So there you have it, for now. I will have to add more later in this subject I am sure of that. To sum up I have two brains. One is an adult who is more control now than before. He is rational and thinks ahead. The other is an overanxious fool who needs to be told the truth more often than not. The thing about these two brains is that they share a child who will always stay innocent and pure, no matter how often the parents need to fight.
